Question: How can we regain the passion and drive to serve our Sheykh like we once did?
Do you remember when you first met your Sheykh? Do you remember what goes on in your heart? Do you remember how your spirit was pulled? Do you remember how you want to forget everything except our Sheykh?
If you remember that, make that part of your remembrance everyday. Especially when you are feeling low, remember them. Don’t look at others. Look at yourself. But at the same time, you know how it is when you first fall in love, you think everything is so beautiful. Everything is perfect. So, you want to commit. You commit, you get married, then suddenly, problems, they come. Isn’t it? Of course problem is a part of our life. No one says, ‘I want to have a marriage without any problem, without any challenges.’ And we say, where are you living? Even Hz Adam and Hz Hawa, in Paradise, it was not perfect. And believer should not be making this world into a Paradise. A believer should look into all these things that is happening and look for the wisdom of why it’s happening. And it is an opportunity, a chance, a way for you to come closer to Allah.
So now, when all these challenges that is coming, are you going to say, ‘oh, I’ve lost it. I’ve lost the passion. I’m not real anymore.’ Maybe when we first met our Sheykh and we say we want to be with you, we want to serve you, and now in that promise, challenges may happen to make us to become more sincere in that. Because in the beginning, of course things are going to be beautiful. Of course things are going to be easy. The Sheykh will hook you. You finish your honeymoon period. So now, this is the real test of whether your love, the promise that you made, it is going to be true or not.
Everything that is valuable must be tested for it to be true. So sit down and try to understand what was the passion, what was the drive. How was the passion and the drive before? What were you doing? What were you feeling? And why now you are not doing the same thing and you are not feeling the same thing? Are you doing the same thing? No.
Those who have lost the passion and the drive, hardly I see anyone who ask this question, they lost the passion and the drive is when they are still running, then they say, ‘I’m running, I’m running, I’m running. I’m helping. I’m doing so much but I don’t have the drive anymore.’ Usually, we see those ones who don’t run anymore and they say, ‘I’ve lost the passion and the drive.’ Isn’t it? Because those ones now who are serving, and they are being busy serving, they understand now, yes it is good to have the Ashq. It is good to have the passion and the drive, but when whatever reasons, the ego or sheytan, dunya or your desires is making the drive and the passion to come down, what is it that you must hold on to? The Hizmet. The service. The work that you are doing. That you have to hold on to.
You are praying, sometimes you pray, especially Holy Nights, mashaAllah. So much passion isn’t it. So much drive. Then later when that finishes, that drive and that passion, and you are praying the next day, the next week, the next month, and you don’t have that anymore. What do you do? You give up? You hold on to it.
Because you are serving in the way, the one who is the Sahib of the passion, he’s going to give it to you. Sometimes the Sheykh may even take away the passion from you. To test you. You are saying that you love the Sheykh so much. You have passion so much. You have drive so much like you once did. Sometimes the Sheykh will take it from you to see whether you are sincere in that or not. Are you going to start blaming people now? Are you going to start blaming your Sheykh? Because now, if you have service, you are going to hold on to that. Then you are going to understand: whatever I feel, whatever is going through me, whether it’s a lot of passion or no passion at all, there is my duty, it is my obligation, it is my farz to continue working, to continue serving. And they are watching. You are fighting your ego, you are continuing, continuing, continuing. Something will happen. It will drop in your heart. It will open again.
Connect yourself. Hold on tightly. But so many times, we lost our passion and our drive, not because the Sheykh takes it away, but because of the veils that you have put, the barricades that you have put between you and your Sheykh. Check yourself. Remove those veils. If you are sincere, you will find them. Remove them. You don’t know how to remove, then be with those ones who can help you. Don’t be by yourself. The wolves will get you, very easy.
Hoja Lokman Effendi Hz, Khalifah of Sheykh Abdul Kerim al-Hakkani al-Kibrisi QS, Osmanli Dergahi.
Thursday 14 Jumadil Awwal 1436
March 5, 2015