Question: How do I keep my sanity living in Tarikat? I understand what my ego wants; however, I am not giving into it. Yet, I feel the pressure in my heart when the desires pulls and I know I am weak. How do I stay on the straight path?
Those who are strong, you will stay. Be in the company of those who are strong, you will stay. Everyone who is trying to get rid of old habits, bad habits, dangerous habits by yourself you know you can’t make it whether it’s, whatever you do, say smoking, drugs, eating fried chicken, whatever, eating so much, some people they eat a lot. Huh! They are working with food everyday. They are eating, eating. You say, ‘how can I, now try to be, healthy like this?’ By yourself you cannot. Then you have to be around strong people and they will be able to, you will be able to be in line and this is a phase that you are going through that everyone has gone through.
This is one of those things where by yourself, because you are feeling it you think nobody else feels it, because you are feeling it. But everyone else has felt it in different ways, in different degrees, maybe someone has felt it 20 years ago, 10 years ago, 5 years ago, 5 days ago, they are able to now take you to that road, that path and they will be able to help you. It’s not just talking to the Shaykh, the Shaykh so many people that are around Him. When you try to do that then don’t worry. You are going to lose that part of yourself that is causing you harm and you are going to gain that part of yourself that is going to bring you benefit here and hereafter. Sometimes we are so identified with the harmful part of ourselves, we think that is ourselves. It is not. Understand?
Understand that you are not your ego, your ego is not you. You are the spirit. The ego can overtake at times but that is not you. Don’t ever fall into the depression to say “I cannot change, I am like this.” No, Allah did not create you like that. The Prophet (asws) was not sent to confirm that kind of negativity that you have. If anything, the Prophet (asws) was sent to the worst people, to the worst ones, to remind them that they have that Divine secret, that goodness that is inside of them if they only put their ego aside. So don’t worry so much, hang around us a little bit more. Selam Aleykum.
Sheykh Lokman Efendi Hz,
Khalifah of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
OSMANLI DERGAHI- New York
12 Rabiul Thani 1437
January 22, 2016.