Question: Sometimes when I ask for forgiveness from Allah in sajdah, it becomes very heavy physically, and I feel great weight on me and feel I will be crushed. Am I feeling the weight of the burden of my sins? Is this a taste of what my Shaykh is carrying for me? I am asking for your prayers to lighten this burden on my Shaykh.
Go to Sajdah and if it is heavy for you a little bit, say Alhamdulillah. Say Alhamdulillah. Don’t be weak ones that any discomfort then you are going to say, ‘Oh! I am not going to do it.’. Because now when you are in Sajdah, Holy Prophet (asws) is saying, ‘the servant is closest to Allah (swt) when he is in Sajdah, in prostration.’
So it becomes heavy. Force yourself. Say, ‘this is good, my ego is going crazy, it’s not liking, my body is becoming really rebelling against this action.’ And if you sit down and think about it, what’s the big deal? You are just putting your head to the ground, what’s going to happen? You’re going to die? If you are going to die, if you think your head is going to explode, which I’ve never heard of anyone go to sajdah, their head exploding and they die. Even if you do, you will die a martyr, very good. So what’s the big deal now? What is the big deal of standing up, saying, ‘I want to stand up for 5 minutes just to give Salawats, or 10 minutes or 15 minutes, or I want to stand up and I want to make Salatul Tasbih,’ that you have to make a lot of Tasbih and it’s a long namaz but the body is going really crazy. Why? You are just standing up. Allah knows we stood up without moving for the dunya almost every day of our lives. Everyone is, when they are taking the train or the bus they cannot sit down they stand up right? Yeah the ride is 5 minutes, it’s 5 minutes, if it’s half hour, it’s half hour we stand up. Do you go crazy standing up when you are in the bus or the train or standing up because you are waiting for something or standing….No. Why are you standing up for the sake of Allah just to stand up to give Salawats or to recite the names of Allah the body goes crazy?
So that means it is not you, it is your ego, and when it feels that way it is good. That means you are showing the stick little bit to your ego. You say “Good, all day long whenever you want to sit, I sit, whenever you want to go, I go, whatever you want to eat, I eat. Now you listen to me, you are going to go into that Sajdah 5 minutes”. And anyone who makes Sajdah for 5 minutes it seems like a really long time. Isn’t it? But in that position too it is very good for you. Very good spiritually, physically it is excellent for you. The blood is circling it’s renewing. Allah knows. Allah has given this ummat the best.
So now, yeah, if you feel that way say ‘good.’ Say, ‘Ya Rabb,i this discomfort I feel my ego is going crazy, may it cleans some of my wrong actions that I have done in my life,’ It will be good. Yeah, it’s nothing. Sheykh Effendi used to have murids, he have murids who would make the whole zikir in Sajdah, the whole Khatm in Sajdah. We are not saying it to tell people to do it. Don’t do it, if it is not given to you don’t do it. Don’t put yourself under that heaviness too. But if you want to go to Sajdah 5 minutes, 10 minutes, one hour, I am not going to stop you. Just watch yourself because the ego goes crazy too. Sometimes if you are not ready, the ego says, ‘Okay, go to Sajdah. Later I am going to jump up and down, do crazier things now,’ especially if it doesn’t come with the prayer and the permission. It lets you to do some things then later it goes even crazier about it. But, that’s all a process of learning in this way. Little bit.
Yes, the Evliyaullah what they are carrying for us, we cannot imagine. They are carrying for the whole nation.May Allah make their job easier. May Allah (swt) make us to be better ones for them, InshaAllah. Selam Aleykum wa Rahmathullah.
Sheykh Lokman Efendi Hz,
Khalifah of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
OSMANLI DERGAHI- New York
October 1, 2014