How do I stop myself from thinking wrong thoughts at the Dergah?


Question: How do I stop myself from thinking wrong thoughts at the Dergah?


The number one thing they are teaching in the military is what? It is discipline. I ask you, how do they teach you discipline? You say they beat you into it. They don’t. The American system, they don’t because you enter into the military willingly. You have a choice. Even in different countries they have a choice. You can either stay, you can drop out, you can fail yourself. You can drop out, correct? So you have a choice and there were so many things that you do in your life before you enter into the military that is going to be conflicting with the life and the discipline of the military. Military teaches you what? How to walk, how to sit, when to sit, when to sleep, when to stand up. It is giving you discipline in every aspect of your life. Before, you can sleep anytime you want, eat anything you want, and now you’re in the military, you cannot. You can rebel against that and you can choose to drop out, correct? But you don’t want to do that because you want to be good, you want to be excelling, you want to improve.

So how do you improve? When you put that more into you. When by choice you’re saying, ‘reveille is five am; I’m going to get a little bit earlier than that. I’m going to get myself ready so that my mind is sharp when there is that first roll call.’ Then what happens then? You enter as a recruit. But those ones, the commanders there, they are trained, they see, and from little signs they know you. They say, ‘this one, he has a look. This one is sharp. Train him differently. Give him some responsibilities; let’s see how he carries it. This one is talking too much.’ That’s one thing in the military, right? You see a guy who talks too much, he’s full of what? He’s full of it, correct? ‘this one, he has discipline and he looks around the people and when he wakes up, it’s not just him, he wakes up other people too, he doesn’t want to get them into trouble. Not to put authority but so that they don’t get into trouble. They say, ‘train that one differently.’

So those ones in authority, they know from early on and they will push you according to the, in Tarikat terms we say different secrets that you have because although in the military everyone is treated the same, more or less, as a recruit you’re all treated the same, but the military, everyone is different. Everyone has a rank and every rank is treated differently. Still they are looking to see everywhere, even though you treat everyone the same they start to see, what are the different qualities that you have, for certain responsibilities to be given to you. So how do you let these secrets that you have to open if you don’t have discipline? Because the discipline will unlock it. Laziness and the ego will cover it. You have different things that you did before the military. You cannot bring it inside. You are going to work hard to stop yourself. You cannot just when you’re having drill just even stand any way that you want. Before someone says something to you, you’re going to try to remind yourself and those who remind themselves first, change themselves first before the sergeant comes, yes, with the stick to beat you up, they say, ‘this one has some quality different from the rest.’ They will treat you differently that time too. So, what do you do? You stop yourself. You put discipline on yourself. You don’t wait for others to put discipline on you. You say, ‘for this time, I must concentrate and I must focus. Other ideas, thoughts comes into me, I cannot let it interfere. The command is given I cannot be just looking somewhere there. I must be certain. I must be strict.’

Now, you and the Dergah. It’s a very good question you’re asking because the longer that you’re staying in the Dergah, now there are certain things they are starting to work on you. If you are not discovering, first, how real and how alive your ego is, let’s say in today’s words, the demon that is inside of you that you’re still hiding it. If you’re not going through some difficulty that you have to wrestle and reconcile with, you’re still hiding it. You have to come through a brick wall now because the ego is now going crazy and you realize, ‘I didn’t know it was going so crazy. What do you want?’ you’re going to ask it.

‘I can’t stand it here! I want to just go anywhere I like.’

Ask it, ‘where do you want to go?’

‘I want to go to cafe.’ So easy.

‘No, not the same.’

‘Where else do you want to go?’

‘I want to go and to talk to girls.’

Why do you want to talk to girls? Ask. What do you want to get from it? All these years you’ve been talking to girls, for instance, what do you gain from it? Do you gain a marriage and a child and building this society, this community? No. It got you more into trouble. Then you, soon, you start to discover that everything that the ego is screaming about, it’s just nonsense. Either you have it already or whatever that you’ve tasted before, now you understand the real taste of it. This is when, then you have all those thoughts that are coming in, first you try to deflect it, correct? Now, a certain time has passed, you’re going to sit down, you’re going to see, why do I have these thoughts? It’s coming, it’s coming with so much power. Power is given. How it’s given? ‘It’s because I was thinking of these things before. I was giving so much time to thinking of these things.’ Now, you don’t spend so much time, but because it’s going crazy, it’s fighting back, you understand?

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Just like you are not thinking of anything but just when you are saying Takbir, suddenly all sorts of different things come into your mind, come into your heart, so many dirty things coming, correct? Same thing when you are making the zikr. Of course sheytan is going to attack you then. He’s going to attack you when you are in the toilet? You’re already in the toilet, surrounded by sheytans. He’s not going to attack you. It is when you are making zikr, when you are praying, he’s going to. So now, the advantage about staying in the Dergah is, things that you are doing here, we are not really separating that from worshiping. Because you are running now, not for the sake of your ego. You are running now in the way of the Evliyaullah. So that is considered worship.

So now, what I’m trying to say is that it gets easier when you start to think about it. Don’t start to think when you are calling the Takbir, when you are making the zikr, that’s the time you are going to try to bring your thoughts to have more discipline and you are going to push away all the evil ideas that comes to you. You don’t wait till that. What you are going to do, when you are doing your work in the Dergah, when you are doing what? Washing the dishes, cleaning the toilet, for example, going to the barn for example. What happens then? What are you doing when you are cleaning the toilet? You have to focus in cleaning the toilet. You have to be very discipline in cleaning the toilet. Do you understand? And you have  to say, ‘this toilet, look at it O my ego. You are dirtier than this toilet.’ You say to yourself, ‘I’m dirtier than this. This I can clean so easy. Just put some water, put some cleaning things, it’s so easy.’ But say to yourself, ‘O you,’ your heart,  it’s  not so easy. But doing that when you are cleaning the toilet, focusing in that, not to be in what? In ghaflat, not to be in imagination world, concentrating on the task that you are doing and understanding that this task that you are doing,  it’s related to what you want. You understand.

What do you want? Being in the Dergah, to be a servant to Allah. To be a Murid. To clean your heart. Cleaning the toilet, if you take that and you take the lesson from it, it will clean your heart now. Going to the barn, why do we send so many people to the barn? Sheykh Effendi used to send so many people to the barn when they first come. Yes, now deal with that shit. This is speaking English. Deal with that dirtiness now. But you know what? The dirtiness that the animal produces, it’s better than us. We eat all the best food, we produce the dirtiness, it’s no good for nothing. And say to yourself, you, you eat all this best thing. They just eat grass and dried grass. And they produce meat and they produce milk. They produce everything. Even their waste it is good for something. We, we are no good for nothing.  Say to yourself, ‘you are no good for nothing. Now taste it.’ Say it to yourself. ‘O my ego.’ At least you are doing this and in the way of the Prophets, because every Prophet was a shepherd and they went through that.

Now, some discomfort comes to you when you are doing that cleaning the toilet, say to yourself, say to Allah, say, ‘Ya Rabbi, shukr for this discomfort. May it be a way to clean all my wrong habits and wrong thoughts and wrong actions.’ You keep doing that. Doing your work, not in ghaflat. Doing your work, concentrating on why you are doing it. Those thoughts will be very easy for you to just put a barricade between that and that. It will be very easy. Because you are concentrating when you are doing that, when you are making a zikr, now all you have to do is concentrating on your Sheykh. Because you’ve gone through all that practice before, how to concentrate, it’ll be easier. But, like I said before, everything it is strong because there is a power. Find out where is the source of that power. Cut it. You cannot now hope to cut yourself off from wrong thoughts and wrong ideas if twenty four hours you are thinking about wrong ideas. Whether you are in the Dergah or not. Which is why tafakkur it is very important. Observe yourself.

Observe yourself. Then when things are good, say to Allah, ‘Ya Rabbi, let this be the reality that I want to feel all the time.’ When things are bad, say, ‘Ya Rabbi, forgive me, I’m a weak creature. Do not put this on my shoulders I cannot carry it, You are the strong One, you carry yourself.’ When you wake up, training yourself. When you wake up, train yourself, your thinking. You see, because so many people when they wake up, they wake up like dead people. I’m watching. ‘ahhh, what time is it?’ dead people, you understand? Now train yourself, when you wake up, just like what? Just like reveille, they are blowing that, it’s not soft music coming in. Sheykh  Effendi used to go up there to wake people up in the winter time where the big pot there, of course he wouldn’t be sleeping night time, so many times, he comes up, he sees everyone sleeping, he takes his cane and he knocks against that pot so loudly, everyone getting up. Getting up with what? Getting up with energy, getting up with alertness. I can do that too, every easily. When I’m thinking, and I’m watching, now in a moment when you are dead, you wake up dead but you are forcing yourself to be more alert, you are forcing yourself when you are waking up, to say, ‘Ashadu an-la ilaha il Allah, ve Ashadu anna Muhammadan Abduh ve Rasuluhu.’ Remembering your Sheykh, get up. Now, you like it or not, in the Dergah there is cold water, although so many of you you go to use the warm water, I know that too, but you are saying now cold water your ego is hating it, ‘ahh! Why am I doing this. I could be at home.’ You are saying, ‘good, O my ego. Not everything is as you like. I know that when I do this, waking up when it’s freezing outside and having cold water to splash on my face, just so that I can wake up and worship my Lord, my Lord is happy with me. All my life I’m running to make you happy, it is not giving me any happiness. This few times I’m doing it for the sake of my Lord, knowing my Lord is happy with me but it’s small action that I’m doing, to step on my ego, He is pleased with me and I’m pleased with Him.’ Do you understand?

That is waking up, thinking and understanding and being alert why you are doing things when you are waking up. I’m talking about space of a few minutes now. You have the whole day, you have twenty-four hours to put this in. But I’m saying, sometimes you don’t need twenty-four hours, you cannot carry it. But at least, watch yourself when you are weakest, when you are making yourself strong when you are weakest, that’s how strong you will be. You are weakest when you get up, you catch yourself, you become very strong then. Do you understand? Now, go and work. Eating. After that you have your breakfast, look, see, understand. Then you are working a little bit. Look and see and understand. Concentrate on what you are doing. Take out the ghaflat, heedlessness. Do you understand? Then slowly, when it comes to the zikr, that time you don’t wait for the sergeant to come with the stick, you say to your ego, you are sitting down and you are falling asleep, sit in another position. Pull yourself a little bit tighter. Sit yourself in another position that is going to be waking you up. Yes, if you start doing that, it will be so easy. Things will open to you. Not only will you be able to stop all these wrong thoughts from coming. But once you stop that, your heart will start opening. New thoughts will come in. Not from your ego, not from sheytan, not from your nafs, but from Rahman. New thoughts from the Evliyaullah they will come in. Nice, and when you feel it you become more alive. Just as when wrong thoughts come to you, you become more dead, this one you become more alive.

Take that step, you will understand. Watch to see what gives you more power spiritually and what takes away that power. If you understand that you are going to stay awake from those thoughts, those actions, those people around you too. Insya’Allah, that time, step by step you are going to make progress, you are going to be much stronger and you are going to know what this place is giving. Stay here for a while then go out there and see. It’ll never be the same again.You will start to see. You will start to feel a little bit. You start to understand the reality of this dunya. WaminaAllahu Taufiq. Al-Fatiha.


stock-vector-vector-vintage-borders-54193183 (2) Sheykh Lokman Efendi Hz
Khalifah of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
15 Rabiul Awwal 1438
December 15, 2016 stock-vector-vector-vintage-borders-54193183 (2)


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