Question: I fall into a deep hole and am sinking further every day, becoming a worse and empty person, feels like something died inside, nothing good left, I know I cannot come out of this by myself. I know which way I should go, which way is right but I cannot take a step. What should my first step be?
You’ve already taken your fist step. Never despair from your Lord’s Mercy. You think you are the one asking Allah for help? Your dua is your Lord speaking to you, to ask Him. Do you understand? The fact that you are asking is meaning that Allah is remembering you. You have already taken your first step. Never underestimate the power of the dua, especially in this month. We are asking Allah to give you more strength, insyaAllah, to be with the right ones. Be sincere. Allah will send a good one to your way. He just holds out His hand, that time when He does, take it. Don’t be stubborn, don’t be complaining. Don’t say ‘I’m waiting for Allah, I’m not waiting for a man.’ Take it. Step by step, because Allah’s Mercy, especially in this month of Mercy, it is endless. If Allah is not showing any Mercy or any love to you, you would not even ask from Him. Meaning you’ve already completely forgotten Him. But you have not.
May Allah make it easy for you, insyaAllah. Speak to someone that is sincere that you can trust, ask for that one to pray for you. Speak, ope your heart a little bit, take everything out a little bit. You’ll see, Allah is the One who is the Healer, who is the Turner of Hearts. May Allah make it easy for you. Wa minallahu Taufiq, Al Fatiha. Amin. Selam Aleykum.
Sheykh Lokman Efendi Hz
Khalifah of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
Osmanli Dergahi, NY
23 Ramazan 1439
June 7, 2018