Question: You always mention that to know yourself, you know your Lord. We know that we can never know Allah SWT to His fullest extent. Can we know ourselves, is there a point where we can say we know ourselves completely?
Have you known yourself half? How much do you think you know yourself? How much do you think you have known about yourself? Okay, then you cannot ask that question. That question is academic. What is knowing yourself? Know what? You cannot even answer that question then why are you asking me those questions? What do you understand, to know yourself?
Murid: To know your ego.
Good, to know your ego. You know your ego a little bit? You still don’t know? I’m going to take this and I’m going to whack it on your head. All this time I’m wasting my time, telling you? You still don’t know you’re stubborn? You still don’t know you’re complaining so much? You still don’t know? You know or you don’t know, or you don’t want to know? You know or not? You know. You’re working on it, I know that. It’s good, be humble, little thing. Just say, ‘oh, alhamdulillah,’ instead of saying, ‘can I know all of myself?’ just say, ‘I have one problem that I have. I always get angry. Three years ago I get angry, I beat up one person. Two years ago, I didn’t beat anyone up. One year ago, I smacked myself when I get upset.’ Then you can say, I make some progress. Be busy with that. And then you say, ‘what other things?’ you’re checking, checking. ‘This part I have a problem with. I’m not looking to get rid of everything because it’s just too much, let me at least get a handle on this, handle on that, control this. I talk too much. Am I managing to not talk so much? Yeah, a little bit more. Good.’ Next day is going to be something, next day is going to be something. Believers today has to be better then yesterday, tomorrow has to be better than today, aim for this. You understand me? That’s all, don’t worry about knowledge of Allah.
Shaykh Lokman Efendi Hz
Khalifa of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
Osmanli Dergah, New York
2 Rabi al-Ahir 1441H
November 28, 2019