Question: After the day of Qalu Bala why do we have to go through a period of innocence, childhood, to remember that day?
The childhood is not knowing? Childhood is knowing. Adulthood is not knowing, childhood you know more about Qalu Bala. Childhood you know more about the Day of Promises, what is the Day of Promises? The Day of Promises, when Allah is gathering all of Hazreti Insan and asking, ‘am I not your Lord?’ And all our spirits are there and we answered. Our spirits are there, our spirits were there, not in any disorganized way. If on the Day of Judgment we’re going to be standing row upon row with an imam, on the Day of Promises we were standing row upon row with an imam in front of us also. We were very near to each to other, we were close to each other. That’s why we are feeling comfortable with each other now as adults.
He’s saying, well, if the spirit knows that then why we have to go through childhood when we forget about all of that? We’re saying the child doesn’t forget. The child knows. Majority of the children, I was going to say all, really, without any exceptions, you put children together what do they do? They start fighting with each other? First they start playing with each other. Even if they are strangers they start playing with each other. There is a what? Familiarity. In spirit too. It’s because of spirit. Because they are at that age where they are maksum, they are innocent, they haven’t done anything that is wrong. They are closer to that angelic world and that spiritual world than we can ever be, which is why if they pass before the age of maturity, especially if they are toddlers, immediately they are in the presence of Hz Ibrahim (AS), a very high station of paradise. So the child knows. Who else knows? Those who are still innocent, the mahzub a little bit they know. And you see them, then they have innocence. We don’t know, we forgot. They remember. And they remember and they know not because they read any books, they are children and they know. And these things women know better. Because there is something above the thinking process, there is something that comes more naturally, there is the heart, there is also the will. There is the will, there is the intention. When the intention becomes just like that, when you intend and then it is. Isn’t this world an intention? Isn’t everything in creation an intention? It is a Divine Intention isn’t it? Kun fayakun.
But if you don’t control your nafs and your desires and your dunya and your hawa and your sheytan, if you don’t control it, doesn’t matter how high you go, you will fall. You cannot control, you will fall. We’re trying to stop people from falling. If you don’t control, you make a slip, especially the higher you go, you know? They say the higher you go the harder the fall, no? When you’re on this ground you can jump up and down, when you’re a hundred feet up, a thousand feet up, when you see, you don’t even have that feeling to jump up and down, and they’re going to put barricades everywhere to say, watch out, be careful, be careful, be careful. You let them go, you let anything go, we are not in paradise where you let anything go and then it will find it’s true nature, we are in Asfala Safileen, we cannot let anything go. We are in the lowest of the low, we cannot let anything go. No Prophet came, a hundred and twenty four thousand, that says, ‘just let go. Just be free. Just do whatever you want. Just find your freedom and you will be happy.’ No Prophet came to bring that rule, every Prophet came first to say, ‘there are boundaries.’ Why? ‘Because we’re in very dangerous territory. There must be boundaries.’
You think the animal is free in the jungle? In the jungle there is even more laws then there is in man. Out there is a jungle, there are laws out there, you know? There are certain areas you can walk, certain areas you should not walk. Certain people you can look, certain people you cannot look, correct or not? Certain people you can speak, certain people you better not speak. You know this. There are laws and there are boundaries everywhere.
So no Prophet came to say, ‘you’re free,’ every Prophet came, ‘be careful, this is dangerous. Have this boundary, have this boundary, have this boundary,’ and what happens when you in that boundary? You are safe. What happens when you’re safe, then that time when you’re safe yes, your spirit can be free, in that boundary. But because you are not on home ground, this is not your house, this is not your home, no matter how free you feel in that little boundary, you still feel caged. Now we’re adults and we’re mentioning Qalu Bala a lot, the Day of Promises. Which is not to say you’re going to say, ‘I must bring myself back to Qalu Bala, I must bring, bring, bring, myself back to Qalu Bala, oh, where am I, where am I sitting, who am I sitting next to, who is my Sheykh in front of me,’ don’t think everyone is thinking, ‘Qalu Bala I’m sitting in front of Allah,’ now. You’re sitting in front of that one, and don’t think you are answering by yourself too, somebody’s making you to answer that. There’s a reason why, for example, we make the sajda twice in our prayers.
Somebody’s making you to say, ‘bala – yes, indeed.’ It’s not like that, to sit and go a little bit deeper, you find a Sheykh, you find a path, you find a Sheykh, and in that path there for example that highway, now you find a way, a road. Maybe millions are passing, right? But there is one road that you are passing that others they cannot come to knock you up, they should not also, they cannot interfere, now you have to go. And when you’re going you need more help that time, you need more protection. You find a path and you find a Sheykh now, and you’re travelling along this path is answering that question that you made on the Day of Promises, you understand? He’s answering. So don’t think now I’m going to sit down, I’m going to remember that day and I’m going to give the answer. How are you going to live your life, especially as a Murid, reflecting the answer that you gave on that pre-eternal time. If you are not running after Allah, on the way, on the path with a Sheykh, if you’re not running after Allah then you’re not remembering your answer. If you’re running after Allah (SWT) and you are running to please Him, trying to find what is your work, what is your Divine work here that Allah is giving you to do, as a servant, serving who? Then you are answering that question, your whole life is Qalu Bala. Your whole life is that.
As our Sheykh said, Allah (SWT) is saying, ‘Alastu Birrabikum. Am I not your lord?’ that question is not asked one time, in the time of pre-eternity, Allah (SWT) is always asking us that question. ‘Am I not your lord? Am I not your lord?’ and how you’re living your life is answering that. ‘Indeed You are.’ do you understand? It’s not something new that I’m introducing, I’m just turning it another way. So, no. It is not trying to sit and to remember where you were, what you were, if you are not remembering, if you’re not doing it now, you will never remember. If you’re doing it now, you start realizing that you never forgot and the one who was reminding you back then He is reminding you now. You understand? Wa minallahu taufiq, al Fatiha. Amin.
Shaykh Lokman Efendi Hz
Khalifah of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
Osmanli Dergah, New York
25 Rabi al-Ahir 1441H
December 21, 2019