Question: How can you long to meet with Allah when you are so ashamed of yourself?
What do you want from Allah? What do you want from Allah? His mercy, right? Don’t be stuck, philosophy, theory, ‘oh I am so ashamed, I don’t even want anything, am I even worth anything,’ no. You are ashamed, you want His mercy. So run to His mercy.
When you’re running to the mercy, to those who are representing mercy, you run to the Awliya Allah, you run to the Prophets, you run to the Prophet (AS), then there will be, ‘okay, I am ashamed, he’s showing mercy, now I feel the mercy.’
No one can say you do salawats or you’re making zikr and you don’t feel any mercy. Now with that, now you feel a little bit of mercy, you feel a little bit of lightness, what do you do?
When someone gives you something what do you do? Right. Be grateful. Now, according to your station, what is that gratitude, how are you going to be grateful, just to say thank you? Ah. Now this is again showing your intelligence and your understanding. Now, maybe I’m not even going to say, but I’m going to do. Hz Ali (KW) is saying, ‘the one who gives you water, you are his slave for forty years.’ You understand? So many people they don’t understand, so many people they forget. It’s okay. So to know now, that one has shown you mercy. That’s why in the old days especially, they have no problems calling themselves Ghulam Rasul, Ghulam Nabi, you understand? The slave of the Prophet. But in these days if you have names like that, everyone will turn and say, ‘no, this is shirk, it’s better to say Abdullah, not to say this.’ But the meaning is good.
No one has ever, in fourteen hundred years, loved the Prophet so much that they say that he is Allah, impossible. And that is a big miracle too, so many Prophets when they passed, their people started to worship them and turn them into an ilah, but never, in fourteen hundred years of the history of Islam. So you say thank you, now according to how you’re going to say thank you. If you know that, ‘ah, I am a slave, so my everything now, my jaan, is for you.’ Now you’re going to watch yourself. ‘I say my jaan is for him, then this is needed, this needs to be done, this is this, this is that,’ then you’re going to fit according to that. You’re not going to say, ‘I belong to you,’ and then you’re just going to sit home, watch TV, or do this or do that. Understand? They will continue giving mercy, now they’re looking to see you, where you want to be. Do you want to be with them or do you want to be with yourself. If you want to be with them as the Sahabi-e-Kiram were, if you want to be with them, if you want to be in that sohbet, then you’re going to start walking the road, walking the path. Then there are things you need to do, your thinking, your attitude, your ideas, it becomes more and more focused, it becomes more cleaner. It’s not so chaotic with so many other things, it just becomes nice and neat, according to the way of the Prophet (AS). And what the Khalifas bring for that situation, for that time, what is needed for that time, then there is a purpose, there is a meaning.
That’s why Muslims don’t have, they pray, there is no satisfaction, they go to Hajj there is no satisfaction, they go to umrah, they do everything they have no satisfaction, there is no meaning in whatever that they’re doing. They lost that meaning. They lost that meaning because they don’t understand what is the meaning of the mission of the Prophet now. There is no meaning there. And for mankind, when you do something without any meaning, that is enough for you to kill yourself. To know that everything is meaningless. But Allah (SWT) did not create us without a meaning, He has created especially mankind with the highest meaning. InsyaAllah, hold on tightly to your Sheykh InsyaAllah. Khayr, fatiha.
Shaykh Lokman Efendi Hz
Khalifah of SahibulSaif Shaykh Abdulkerim el Kibrisi (qs),
Osmanli Dergah, New York
10 Shaban 1441
April 3, 2020